One of my favourite poem cards is the one with the picture of footprints on the sand and the words explain how the person wonders where God was when they were experiencing so much trouble and heartache. God pointed out to them that only one set of footprints can be seen at that time because this was when God had carried them.
There have been times when I have felt unable to handle being single any longer, I wish it didn’t cause pain, but sometimes it does. I can’t get away from reminders that surround me. In my experience I find society to be so couples focused, which is great if you are a part of a couple, but not always great if you are not.
I wanted to have a baby one day, but being husbandless and a Christian woman it wouldn’t be a good idea for me to go down that road would it?
- I would be going against what God has clearly said should be the blueprint for having a family; marriage first before having children. “… A man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh.” “ God blessed them and said to them “Be fruitful and increase in number…” Genesis 2:24, 1:28
- I would be going against my church beliefs, which are based on biblical teachings.
- I would be going against what I believe is the right thing to do.
However my hormones, feelings and emotions don’t really listen to all of that, and neither does the world I live in, whose values and beliefs advocate living however you want, as long as you’re not hurting anybody. Therefore, technically I can do what -ever I like, I am free to choose, but there are always consequences to live with. I know deep down I would not be happy if I didn’t do things God’s way. After all He does know a lot more than me, and ultimately wants the best life for me, which is why He gave those principles to live by. To choose to get pregnant without being married would be causing me more heartache in the long run, and I don’t need more heartache and heart break, so there is no point going down that road! But I can’t say that it’s an easy decision to make.
It’s a difficult battle within, when I see pregnant women, cute lovely babies, see couples out with their families, when I hold my friends’ baby in my arms I get the baby blues. I have to keep rehearsing these words in my mind and hold back the tears: “My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength and power are made perfect in your weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9. When I am weak, God is strong for me, when I can’t take any more He provides the strength for me to bear it. When the clouds are dark, blocking out the sun He brings light into my heart. He reminds me that I am His child, that I am precious to Him, that He loves me with an everlasting love, and that when I fall down He will lift me up; that He is able to provide for all my needs.
Obviously His take on what I need and my opinion on what I think I need are not synchronised at the moment. I imagine that He is waiting, like the great Dad He is, for me to come to my senses and acknowledge that His way is the best way and stop moaning about my situation. I am trying, though it is hard to cope as a human.
I suppose that’s why He reminds me that His “Grace” and “Strength” is sufficient to help me in my weak times, which is pretty much all the time. I’m glad He’s there for me; He’s there for you too.
Be encouraged